- In my old age let me study
- the great vessels
- the Venus drainage
- the functions which prevent
- the heart from overflowing
- the wise tension of that
- which is flexible
- but does not stretch beyond
- let me eat barley, scallions
- take bruises as signals
- and impact as impacting
- tally the events which sent
- my heart blood to
- my face, stomach
- pounding at receipt
- even grocery store roses
- wrapped in loud plastic
- eyes and skin changing color
- to prove the
- world
POEM A DAY 2022
PERICARDIUM (belated Valentines Prayer)
Hearts & Minds
The doctor doesn't even need my clothes
It's a hernia
Get surgery
You'll be fine in 6 months
I was thinking last September if
I'd be fine six months hence
unrelated
look,
my mind is still willing.
forgetting the sabbath prayers
what is trust
between a cockroach
& the harbor of a rotten vanity
between beds of a bunk
between dust & a mistuned piano
between boca burgers & a toaster oven
between Jeopardy & 7
between faith & a glass of grape juice
between turtles & ninja
between pillows & erections
& shame & local access television
& pee & porcelain
& grey scale tiles of a bathroom floor
between trust & brothers
is love ideally
if not resentment
condemnation
an apartment of grievances
to tow around in a storage locker
for the rest of a life
like childhood somehow betrayed gravity
& punishment is between
trust & forgiveness
Still thinking about it
I wish you had met me at low tide
On that limestone poppy ridge
In the autumn when the lifeguards
Go back to college
Tossed my windswept seastrewn heart
Into an oyster bucket
Swam to the sprinting moon with me
Fearless of drowning
COURTESY + COMMON SENSE
- pale gold castle school
- it was so special, that time
- everything mattered
- what we got at the corner store
- what kind of muffin, dense chocolate
- or oily poppyseed
- chocolate milk or Martinelli’s
- diet coke with lemon
- I wish I smoked then
- so I could return to it now
- stand in a corner and put on a song
- close my eyes and hold the ember
- out like a lantern
- airplane arms rigid drifting
- in a controlled
- glide
NEW KIND OF FIGHT
how could I
both so chiseled
but it’s cute to be shy
cute to be alive
cute to be too much
blinking bright eyes
in the hot pink landscape
clapping telephone game
where you pass along desires
until someone ends up
closer to what
IMPRINT (pear poem 4)
right
to treasure everything
I wish we could meet
in closeness
some sour smell
me letting myself out
Pear Poem 3 (reading about the moon)
calling the tides, sending strings out
from your fingers
movie tickets, too slippery to hold
in the butter dark
churning along
one paw down my pants
a case of faces
shining chin, as kids we teased
it had its own population
we locked into each other,
neither of us knowing
what do with pain
out again
reading about Zen, making altars
with garbage, cooking Poppy tea
dying
the sun of total
warmth
Autobiography
I was born in the endless mountains
And from there developed an endless
Need to be held between valleys
Lehigh, Lehigh, lama sabachtani ?
Teenage Mary Magdalene, seduced
By the Lutheran lighting tech, I
Still sing the passion play songs
And feel wild enough to get to heaven
Julianne and I paced the overflow pond
In halter tops and platform sandals
I always picture her nose deep in sick lit
Perched in an apple tree, one leg swinging
Before Applewood sold the orchard
shop my moms yard sale
you left me to bargain
in the bric a brac bin
with a rocking horse disposition
and crocheted mittens
despite the gnomes
their lacquers
the ducks-in-a-rows
i won the day
found treasure antiqued in
a sorry bucket
i switched the stickers
you'd say
i knew the lucky colors
you'd say
whats the price
of a music box to a deaf heart
its worth the tickling ridges
and the teeth of the harp
say this spinning can last
only so long
as wooden fruit can grow
so you left me to the bottom of the binners
with a receipt book
and a roll of belgian francs
and the ziploc idiom
that all jewelry is costume
jewelry beneath a certain standard
of goldness
In Ten Years
SHARING A BED
fire dampens
little submissive archetype
bearing resentful sweets
I will contain, not move
I will press you and
never be satisfied with
the pressing
think of the sweet pizza
I lived on in Queens
roll my body out
give it a chance
to deflate
were the stars more
when we were young,
or were our brains just
better at falling?
brains like leaking lakes
spring-green grass
shaking in low wind
and a chanted whisper
daring no-one
to love you