In Ten Years

I think the curse of our self-awareness

is the vanity that comes from forever

situating ourselves within our arcs,

it's relentless, it's not total life ruining

addiction, but it needs a group, or we

need witnesses to witness us all 

just witnessing ourselves. It's what

basically has our barons rewriting 

history by downgrading the space

race for the sake of four minutes

of weightlessness and four minutes

of breathless commentary. We are

all our agents in real time and honestly

it's exhausting, most of the universe is 

a vacuum but then it also fills a 

vacuum and we're so unprepared for 

when it does that, when we're just 

wondering about optics all the time instead 

of singing songs about ourselves that 

might just land on someone else so

that they may continue the song

or just make a subtle amendment

because they want someone else

to get the reference they chose

to help make the reference to 

themself. When we sing and when

we return to the same song ten

years after, it is with the hope that

in the years between we quietly went

about our way finding comfort when

we could, adjusting our circumstances,

just doing the things that needed to be

done, instead of hovering in place,

in fear of losing the words, or their

cadence and expecting that if the

song no longer remains the same

then neither does the audience.