waiting naked for diagnosis

i asked the doc

to look inside

my bum

and with his eyes

and a mini turkey baster 

fashioned scope

he obliged

 

i thought about this

act of inward outness

the rabid potential

the prodigy of shame

from the moment i woke up

and some time before that

i'm scared of doctors

its not my fault

i'm not persuaded by reflexes

or little hammers

or how when they

look inside me

they can see

inside me