THE FIRST AND THE LAST

I was a gremlin
I was boo boo
I was a mute frozen newt
in a drugstore photo
covered in backpack crust
I was womanly
sweeping with my arms 
as my hair swept 
the river twilight 
I was moon-eyed 

an insurgent 
against wellbeing 
a binge-monster 
slouched in the physical therapist’s  
waiting room 
eating honey and fake butter
with a lunch fork